Oh my goodness, what a fun time we had with our SLR Texas group! I haven't shared much about my trip but I plan to! Today, I'm getting through the day. Today would have been my father's 77th birthday!~ Mother will be 77 next week. That's not young. Will I miss my mother as much as I miss my father? Depression has me immobile today. I will allow myself some slack but tomorrow, it's over, the pity party will end! Will the grief end? How much time do I have left with my mother. Our family is gone, the kids are grown, doing their own thing. I've been missing them a lot lately, their rooms are so empty. I'm really feeling the empty nest.
I am afraid to go back to work as a nurse, I have felt it but not said it to anyone. I think I need to "get a life" to get out in public and work, something!
I want to cry but I don't. What good will it do? Life is happiness mixed with so much pain. To feel pain is to know you are alive, it is to realize happiness, it is part of what makes you human.
